WTF

Hey internet world.

The goal for you reading this blog: count the typos!

I tried starting this like... literally 12 hours ago and now it's 124am, Saturday night. I just got back from a fucking $56 dollar tab + 1 free Captain Morgan/Barq's. I haven't drank this much in about a year or more. Probably more like 2. Man do I miss being tanked.

Anyway so I started typing this and was going to complain about my life and reach out to the world with a giant W.T.F .....

I'm 24 (almost) and like........ blah. (Please keep in mind that I've had 4 double rum/cokes and the wierd barq's mix but man am I ever doing an awesome job typing.) I dunno anyway so like I'm going to list my life issues and you're going to tell me how to fix them, K? Excellent... startin now.

1) I live w/my parents (I KNOW!!!!!!!)
2) My boyfriend of 4 years is fat and never used to be.................................... o_O
3) I feel like I should be in school but really would rather travel the world but have no one to travel w/so I'm like wtf do I go to school and spend $3409583 on an education I'll probably do nothing with or do I spend it on traveling the world, finding myself and becoming a better person because the world/life is not about working but about living your one, small, fragile life to the fullest.......
4) My parents treat me like I'm 12. (I.E: they think I'm still a virgin, they tell me when dinner's ready, they tell me to please put my laundry in the basket even tho I can do it myself.... they tell me when to feed my own children [3 dogs/2 cats] they ask me how much gas money I've spent, ETC - YOU GET THE PIC!!!!!!)
5) I have an attitude problem
6) I am irritable but only cuz ppl are stupid
7) I can't make up my own mind

I don't even know what I just typed, that's how tipsy I am. But if I were to quickly tell you why I hate my life w/o re-reading what I just wrote (it took me like fully 10 mins even tho I type like 100+ wpm........) ......... I would say that I'm lost. I want to do what's right but what's right by society and what's right by me are totally different things.

AS IN!!!!!!!


Society wants me to:
-stay with my boyfriend, work things out (i.e accept that he's fat, remember the good old days and live off of the memories, think that things could be worse, etc)
-stay at my $13/hr job forever and have breakdowns every 3rd Tuesday
-live at home forever and be ok with it
-be boring

HOWEVER!!!!!!!

I WANT TO:
-go to England for at least a year
-have several interesting jobs that I can feel fulfilled from instead of feeling like a useless job-hopper........WHILE TRAVELING!!!!
-move out and party more because I've seriously missed out by being in a boring relationship and becoming a bitch for 4 years.........
-BE FUN!!!!!! BE ADVENTUROUS!!!!! BE 80 AND LOOK BACK ON MY LIFE AND ***NOT*** GO "wow I wish I'd done this instead of this".........

Don't you feel you think so much clearer when you're drunk and/or high?
When I'm high I talk with the trees and the sky.... mostly the trees. They tell me that I'm just like them. Living and dying..... just being. I don't REALLY need to follow "rules" ....... It's just easier to do so..... (you probably think I'm a psycho but if you've ever been high you probably understand)

Being high is way more healthier/safer than being drunk. Have you ever met an angry high person? Also smoking pot doesn't cause liver failure. FYI.

Exactly my point.

Ok I'm gonna stop. This is my first blog and no one will read it...... but if they do...... I dunno. But I hope you enjoyed my drunken rant full of NON TYPOS (if you find any pls tell me cuz typos are literally one of my least favorite things in life...... esp when they are done by me) and comment and tell me W.T.F to do w/my life........

(I think I already know...... but findin the strength is hard! Tell me how!!!!)

<3 V